so just a mini post (which probably means it will end up huge) to test out the whole emaill thingy.

 

i have realised again today that i have mood swings. Like today i was so annoyed. I was going through my to-do list and quite pleased that i was ticking alot of things off. then mom needed me to help with some vacuuming and cooking. Completely legitimate. but it took me away from my to-do list. Earth-shattering.

so i try to be nice about it but i still end up being very crabby, short-tempered and had the scrunched up face of a rat. And of course the main victim of my moodiness - mom. Not nice at all. Especially since she's incredibly stressed out, trying to clean out stuff while looking for important misplaced documents.

Bad, bad, bad. So as I was grumpily chopping up cucumbers and carrots I thought about my mood and it seemed so dense so thick like I couldn't just get out of it. Not good. And my grandmother was in the kitchen too ( may not have yet mentioned that my grandmother's here with us in perth too. that's another story for another blogpost)

the thing about me and my moods is that unfortunately when I'm in a bad mood, everyone realises. Even if i'm completely silent. It's like this aura I project. If I'm in a bad mood everyone walks around on eggshells. Can make a person feel very powerful. BUT it's not right. I love my family and yes my mom has this amazing talent of sending me to new levels of annoyance when I'm already in a bad mood but that doesn't change the fact she's my mom.

- interlude from ranting because said mother just walked in-

feeling much better. apparently she was somewhat unaware of my bad mood. ego has been deflated. she's so ridiculously happy go lucky i guess that's why i often go into mother hen on overdrive. mental note to self: next time in bad mood, the strategy of -keeping very quiet and trying to be civil untill i can get away and get my head screwed back on right- seems to work.

mental note to self #2: check calendar.may be that time of the month. i love being female.