where do i start? i guess with the biggest thing in my head and heart right now.
On Sunday I found out that a friend died in a car crash. We weren't the closest of friends but we were friends and she's probably only a year or two younger than me. I'm still a little bit in a state of shock. I'm generally ok but then suddenly I'll remember and then the queasy feelings start. I guess I'm closer to her brother and I don't even think I could begin to understand what's going through his head right now. Logging onto facebook is hard. People left messages on Sarah's wall even though she's never going to read it. It's cathartic I guess for people but it cuts me up when I read messages from close friends on her wall. It hurts and I'm scared. I thought I learnt from a young age that you could lose the people you care about suddenly, but this just brought everything crashing home for me. I just prayed and kept saying over and over that I'm not ready to go yet, I wasn't finished and that most of all that my loved ones be kept safe. If I lost my mother or my brothers there would be no facade in all the world that would be able to hide the mess.
Onto less morbid things....
I'm sorry Suf that it took me so long to update. And I was reading the posts on your wall and it warmed my heart :) thank you for promising to be at my wedding wherever it is (whoever it is with - because in case you forgot i'm single too!) and yes when you come to Perth with your passport I'll take you to Rottnest Island and I'll drive you and Yun around! I'm a very safe driver you know!
I'm still looking for a job or something really to occupy my time. I feel like I have way too much free time on my hands and yet at the same time I'm busy. So if there's any progress on that front i'll metion it here.
This Friday is the Coldplay concert in Perth and I'm so excited. I love their music. and I've loved all the live videos of them performing on youtube. I recently discovered the song 'What If' from their X & Y album although I'm guessing that they'll mostly be playing stuff from their viva la vida album and prospekt's march ep (which is amazing). Also The Fray are playing here on the 17 march and I will shamelessly admit I absolutely love them too. I havent got tickets to the concert but I really wanna go.
Friends are so important and even though I don't always get to keep in touch with all of them knowing that they're there for me makes all the difference in the world. Being back in Singapore last month did that for me. To know that the friends I really care about still care and look out for me means the world. And here too, I've got amazing friends and I have alot of support. I managed to celebrate my birthday the way I really wanted to. I headed down to Cottesloe beach with three other girlfriends. We had very greasy fish & chips that were yum and then a dunk in the water before they 'surprised' me with a birthday cake. (It's not that easy to hide a birthday cake)
Chloe one of my friends left for Sydney this morning with her boyfriend. They're driving across Australia from Perth to Sydney and they'll get there next Tuesday. I've known Chloe from high school here and I adore her. I'll miss her alot and I can't help but remember and be greateul for the friends I've been blessed with. That plus the fact I'll figure out skype so I can keep in touch with Chloe (and Gasp! maybe even my amazing friends in Singapore....and in the Phillipines....)
I think Iara's already on standby if I get too depressed this week and it helps that she lives like 2 blocks away from me. But anyway I thought I'd share the photos taken from my birthday! Sorry they're so small. I thought they'd turn out bigger. Oh well. Go get your magnifying glasses it's 3am and I need sleep!
